I’m not gonna lie – it’s been a rough week for me.
After losing weight and having my body go askew, I’m still dealing with the repercussions. The doctor had me go down to 100mcg of synthroid about a week ago.
This week, I am a ZOMBIE.
I can barely move, I don’t want to see anyone, I want to hide my face in my hands. It feels like I am withdrawing (which I guess I am, coming down from 114mcg of synthroid).
Yes, I have made it into work and with grueling effort, made it through most each work day. I then go home and throw myself into bed, neglecting the cats. Don’t worry, they still get fed.
I feel like such a whiner. I feel like I should be “stronger than this”. I mean, I’m healthy! I’m FINE! Why can I barely MOVE?
After a year of being so ‘on target’ with my thyroid meds, I am very disheartened for that state of steadiness to have unraveled. I had signed up for the Mulholland Challenge century but haven’t even begun training. The thought of even standing up right now causes waves of ‘noooooo’ to echo through out my body.
The apartment is a mess. I finally mustered up enough energy to bathe today (ew, body crust), and might work from home tomorrow, as I don’t see any meetings on my calendar that require me to be there in person.
So disappointed. I feel like my body is no longer ‘in my control’. Does that make sense?
The GOOD news is, is that although I am glum and exhausted, I am not depressed. I really attribute the drastic change in mental outlook to low carb eatin‘. So although I’m having a rough week, I know it could be SO much worse if I was still eating like I used to.
Although I totally pigged out on some comforting beef & butternut squash stew tonight.
Well, waiting to hear back on what the doctors say. I am working with two and honestly, ready to get a THIRD opinion as well.
I know I’m not the first person to lose her thyroid and then go through all of this. Would love to hear from others on how you got your thyroid and body ‘back on track’. Please let me know about the light at the end of this tunnel!