Invisible Thyroid is Invisible

Invisible Thyroid

I’m not gonna lie – it’s been a rough week for me.

After losing weight and having my body go askew, I’m still dealing with the repercussions. The doctor had me go down to 100mcg of synthroid about a week ago.

This week, I am a ZOMBIE.

ZOMBIE!

I can barely move, I don’t want to see anyone, I want to hide my face in my hands. It feels like I am withdrawing (which I guess I am, coming down from 114mcg of synthroid).

ZOMBIE!!

Yes, I have made it into work and with grueling effort, made it through most each work day. I then go home and throw myself into bed, neglecting the cats. Don’t worry, they still get fed.

Mom doesn't give me enough attention so I'm going to snuggle this dishrag

Mom doesn’t give me enough attention so I’m going to snuggle this dishrag

I feel like such a whiner. I feel like I should be “stronger than this”. I mean, I’m healthy! I’m FINE! Why can I barely MOVE?

After a year of being so ‘on target’ with my thyroid meds, I am very disheartened for that state of steadiness to have unraveled. I had signed up for the Mulholland Challenge century but haven’t even begun training. The thought of even standing up right now causes waves of ‘noooooo’ to echo through out my body.

The apartment is a mess. I finally mustered up enough energy to bathe today (ew, body crust), and might work from home tomorrow, as I don’t see any meetings on my calendar that require me to be there in person.

So disappointed. I feel like my body is no longer ‘in my control’. Does that make sense?

The GOOD news is, is that although I am glum and exhausted, I am not depressed. I really attribute the drastic change in mental outlook to low carb eatin‘. So although I’m having a rough week, I know it could be SO much worse if I was still eating like I used to.

Although I totally pigged out on some comforting beef & butternut squash stew tonight.

Well, waiting to hear back on what the doctors say. I am working with two and honestly, ready to get a THIRD opinion as well.

I know I’m not the first person to lose her thyroid and then go through all of this. Would love to hear from others on how you got your thyroid and body ‘back on track’. Please let me know about the light at the end of this tunnel!

6 thoughts on “Invisible Thyroid is Invisible

  1. Sorry to hear you’re having a rough week. When I was trying to figure out what was up with my health I went to a thyroid doctor who my female doctor recommended. I can give you his name. Work from home tomorrow and allow your body to work through whatever it’s going through. You will be okay!

  2. I just wanted to tell you that I still catch up on all your thyroid-happenings and I LOVE your blog! I sure hope you’re feeling better. Have you considered taking Armour or Nature-throid instead of Synthroid?

    • Hi Jen,
      Thanks so much for stopping by and commenting; I am glad you like my blog. I am FINALLY doing better – I have increased the dosage and am alert and awake!! I haven’t heard of those two other meds, but at this point I’m waaaaaaay too hesitant to change my meds in the near future. 🙂

      Cheers,
      Sparky

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